Highs and Lows, Ebbs and Flows

Gorgeous red and purple handmade glass bead necklace by Julie Frahm

So, you would think that at my age, life would be pretty even-keeled, and while certainly not boring, I would like to think that things were pretty smooth sailing.

And then something happens that makes you feel like you are back in high school again (oh dear, NOT again), and you start wondering….about everything…what is wrong with me, what is wrong with them….and why now?  When I was already feeling pretty down and out, why did they have to choose this week to smash me into a million pieces?

So, that happened this week!  I’ll spare you the details.

But I still got to make some beautiful jewellery, and this is just one of the necklaces that I have to show for it.  I’ll show some more over the next couple of days.

Anyway, Saturday marked 2 years since my older brother passed away, and I find myself crying about that just as easily today as I did that day, and I’m not sure if that is normal, but I think it’s OK.  And it was so nice to hear from his friends, letting me know they are also still thinking about him.  He certainly made an impact.

Even knowing that life can be short, I have found it really hard to bounce back this week.  I am looking forward to returning to my usual cheery self, but for now, I think I will let myself feel this, and then I’ll move on.  The Supremes sang “You can’t hurry love,” and I am pretty sure you can’t hurry grieving either.